Unanswered Questions...
I guess that no matter how hard you try to tell someone what you feel or think, they'll always have questions that you may never be able to honestly and/or truthfully answer. It's hard to try to give proper justification for your behaviors sometimes. I guess all you can do is keep trying to explain yourself. Although, how do you explain something that YOU yourself may not fully understand?!? My guess would be, you can't. It's hard to make sense of something that seems to have no sense to you. It's crazy how one phrase or statement can impact someone, and turn their world upside down, isn't it?! I think that what is even more crazy is that after you've said your one phrase or statement, there's nothing you can do to get it back. That person has to live with those words in their head. No matter how many times you tell them, you said it out of anger, pure and simple. It just doesn't make the pain subside. You'll always have questions about that statement..."Well what if that person did mean it?...Does that mean that everything they've said is a lie?" Always with the questions...you may be able to give that person the EXACT answer they're looking or hoping for...but that question will forever remain in their head..."I wonder if it really is what they felt"...you'll just never really know.
It's hard to think about the could haves, should haves and/or the what-ifs. I've been on both sides of that coin. I've been told something that hurt like hell, and still to this day I wonder if that was the real deal. I've also said things out of anger, and because I was completely in defense mode. Either way, it's not something you can take back. And what makes it even harder, is what if there had been things that were done that would somewhat prove that they really felt that way??? Then what?! Do you believe what they say, when they say "it wasn't true, I was just hurting." Or do you believe the actions that went along with that life altering phrase??? It's just too hard to tell.
The mysteries of life, I just don't think it gets any easier...and everytime you think it may be getting easier, you get knocked on your ass, along with a BIG reminder that things are not supposed to be easy. I guess I could just chalk it all up to "being young"...
On a much lighter note!
Jeremy...I am sure we could work something out! Especially if you have your house all to yourself! I am pretty sure that I've heard you say numerous times to many different people that you wanted me to have your babies!? ; ) What I'm getting at, is that you wouldn't have to just videotape! ha! Ok, everyone, I am totally just kidding!!! Seriously though, maybe sometimes next week, you could give us a call and we could do lunch or something...and even though Slakis says that we need an hour...we could get it done faster! We don't want anyone jeopardizing their paychecks! I know I can't! But I am sure you know the floor phone number...if not, grab the damn phone book, and find it! = ) You should know it, how damn long did you work here? Anyway, let's get together and "talk"!! ha!
It's hard to think about the could haves, should haves and/or the what-ifs. I've been on both sides of that coin. I've been told something that hurt like hell, and still to this day I wonder if that was the real deal. I've also said things out of anger, and because I was completely in defense mode. Either way, it's not something you can take back. And what makes it even harder, is what if there had been things that were done that would somewhat prove that they really felt that way??? Then what?! Do you believe what they say, when they say "it wasn't true, I was just hurting." Or do you believe the actions that went along with that life altering phrase??? It's just too hard to tell.
The mysteries of life, I just don't think it gets any easier...and everytime you think it may be getting easier, you get knocked on your ass, along with a BIG reminder that things are not supposed to be easy. I guess I could just chalk it all up to "being young"...
On a much lighter note!
Jeremy...I am sure we could work something out! Especially if you have your house all to yourself! I am pretty sure that I've heard you say numerous times to many different people that you wanted me to have your babies!? ; ) What I'm getting at, is that you wouldn't have to just videotape! ha! Ok, everyone, I am totally just kidding!!! Seriously though, maybe sometimes next week, you could give us a call and we could do lunch or something...and even though Slakis says that we need an hour...we could get it done faster! We don't want anyone jeopardizing their paychecks! I know I can't! But I am sure you know the floor phone number...if not, grab the damn phone book, and find it! = ) You should know it, how damn long did you work here? Anyway, let's get together and "talk"!! ha!
Things can be said out of anger or pain- and not be meant. It's repetition, history if you will, that can tell you a person's true feelings and identity. Look for patterns in behavior. Tendencies. Can age be a factor in confusion? Sure. But can it be a justification for mistakes? That's a tough one. Depends on who you ask I suppose. 'You live and you learn'- one of the very true cliches in the world.